I am so plagued by fear and wondering whether I am making the right choice. Knowing if I make this choice I need to do actions, plenty of them to make this work. Not knowing where to start. How to start. Who to talk to.
I have stopped actively looking for employment. I haven’t told many people yet. Not many. Not the one I need to tell.
I need more time to process those dreams. To start taking those first steps without feeling like everyone’s eyes are on me. Watching, waiting for me to trip. I am giving myself six months. Six months to see what happens. And what my next step will be. Everything happens for a reason. Even contracts not been extended just before Christmas. Other contracts falling through. Not even getting interviews for jobs I could do standing on my head. So. Plagued by fear and not knowing what to do. I am standing still. Taking a breathe. And one more step. All these little steps will add up. I hope.
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