So I am using my phone and a WordPress app to hopefully blog (if you are reading this it worked! ) and show a photo of my page.  And a video will hopefully be forthcoming when the computer fixit people manage to fix my computer.  And I will then faithfully do back ups.

In the mean time, here is the photo taken on my phone of my page…

Crossing my fingers this works…

And it is one of the most infuritating things to keep recording video to have it disappear into thin air.

Thankfully I have had good comments from the first two people to see it, so I have not pulled the video and pretended it did not exist

‘Bravery’ is my word for 2011, and this definitely felt brave.

And because I can, I am also going to try and get it linked up with the Butterfly Effect…because it started kind of abstract, and the idea is kind of abstract…and I can also feel like I have accomplished something on my to-do list even though I have been feeling rubbish for much of the week…

Yesterday I said I had documented the process of this spread. Turns out I didn’t start documenting the process until a couple of things had happened, so I first want you to imagine a few brush strokes of yellow paint in the middle of the spread, from some leftover paint I had from the night before (knowing that I was going to explore yellow on that spread). And then I want you to imagine book pages torn up and gel medium-ed all over the spread. And then because I had the intention to explore yellow and air I then went to get some paint to put on the page…

I had gone to get yellow, but actually I was drawn to the cobalt teal and paynes gray. Did some smooshing around and scribbling with the end of a paint brush.

I then went and grabbed some more paint…again I went in to get some yellow but that is not what I came back with…

After smooshing the green and crimson around I did have some minor oh my gosh moments that I was meant to be exploring yellow, and I was taking photos of this. But I went with it. At the end of this stage I decided to dig out my oil pastels and go on a hunt for some shapes and see what I could find (the abstract?!).

Having found some shapes to play with and explore I splattered a bit of white paint around…

Which did not splatter as I wanted it to, so I smushed the pages together…

Which really did not have the desired effect, and so I “calmly” took the photo of the smushing and started smooshing and smudging the white paint a bit on the page (also secretly wondering if this photo shoot was ever going to see the light of day).

Here a couple of close ups, you can still see some book text but not a whole lot of yellow!

I finally remembered what yellow paint looked like…

And added a bit more white and shading to the faces, starting to find the details of it a bit and see what I could see…

And yet more refining…just listening to the painting, and following my instincts, and sometimes forgetting to take photos

And wondering if I was ruining the painting and should just stop, and write it off, but pushing on through the ugly and oh my gosh I suck phase…realising it is almost done and feeling called to my oil pastels again. And then thinking about if I wanted to write anything and wondering if it was laziness that I wanted to let it speak for itself…

But in any event calling it finished.

And feeling pleased I actually thought about documenting the process despite the flu fog I am in at the moment. And quickly pushing publish and linking it up and going back to bed…